Results

After a ridiculous one hour delay, our results were finally revealed to us.
Long story short I (a) got my diploma and (b) got enough points for Warwick :) Guess all that stalking the uni and planning the next four years of my life based around Warwick won't go to waste now!

Just a quick update. Stuffed myself full of sushi with Ali just now, and am heading to Thailand on Monday!

P.S. Redyed my hair wewww

Eggs

12.04AM 5th July 2011 and it is officially declared movie night.

So I sit here with my cold, (which has thankfully transferred from my head to my chest. Whilst this means i can't run or exercise, at least I don't - fingers crossed - have a stuffed nose which will then keep me up all night.)

In more depressing news, the reason for my impromptu movie-night-that-shall-keep-me-up-unreasonably-late is that tomorrow is the 6th. 6th = results day.
Tomorrow night:

Ultimate celebration (vs.) Ultimate Drowning of Sorrows

For this summer has been me thinking of university. Naturally. For anyone who's just graduated, ready to move on. Unlike those with unconditional offers, I am basing my hopes, dreams and eternal happiness on my potential conditional offer. As anyone could see, in descending chronological order: me getting my offer, me going for my interview, and me pondering my course, that I've really been thinking and planning.

And with results day so close, I am naturally going over every exam and every potential situation and what-ifs and having nightmares and I've managed to get myself sick from stress. The results come out at 8pm. Perfect time for either celebration/sorrow drowning straight after.

This wait is harder than christmas and I'm partaking in my usual time-passing tactics: sleep a lot, (hand in hand with illness regardless,) movies, doing stuff (which really is made up of nonstop university stalking,) and just stressing myself out and panicking.

I need to know my results. When I do I can plan. I can relax; I have put all my eggs in one basket. Not literally - I have my backup university. Backup plans. Trying to keep backup thoughts. But really, I've planned everything around this even though I'm wrecked with nervousness of my own ability.

Fuck, I need to stop pondering in circles. Updates tomorrow.

Seven years.

(1) VII, You are decked in a brand new uniform and you live opposite your new school. You spend countless hours that summer looking out the window making up scenarios. You're in the same tutor group as the girls that you think are your friends. You laugh very loud and get a reputation for being super smart but you're really just good at making people think you are. You get into several petty fights with those girls but to you they're the end of the world and you convince yourself that your life is just as dramatic as all the tv shows you watch.

You want to change your look so you curl your hair and it looks awful and you feel stupid and people mock you, so you go home and write rude things and mean punishments in a bound notebook. You worry that someone will read your punishments so you throw your notebook in a hidey-hole you've discovered in the ceiling. You need to put a stool on your bed whenever you want to retrieve it.

You have plenty of school spirit and run for class council. You go to a few meetings and then get bored and stop going. No one cares. You suck at sports so you don't run or swim or participate in any of the interhouse activities but sometimes you go and support. You cheer loudly when it is announced your house wins the house cup at the end of the year.

(2) VIII, You turn up expecting something fresh and new. You get your new schedule. You analyse the new kids. This year, you will drift away from that group of girls and separate into forming a twosome with one of the other girls. She will continue to be your friend for a while and you are grateful for that.

You breeze through and enjoy year eight. In your mind now, it is just a mesh of the same-as-year-seven-but-a-year-later. You run for student council again and get it. You attend meetings but you're so shy and awkward so you normally just keep quiet.

(3) IX, You hear whispers of how this is the last easy year because of GCSEs next year and how you can slack off in subjects you're not doing next year. You delve into emo music and just about drown yourself in self apathy. This is the period you will look back on and laugh at the most. You dye your hair black black black like your soul and play guitar and write terrible, cliché songs. You convince yourself how life is so dark and difficult and you sit on your computer and complain. You refuse to go anywhere without a thick layer of eyeliner, a habit you will never quite drop.

(4) X, You become part of a group of girls you are convinced will be your friends for life. As time passes, you will come to care for only a few of them. On the other hand, you befriend someone unexpected who will become one of your closest friends ever. GCSEs have started and you come to find out what you're good at and what you're not. You mellow out a bit.

You discover anime and begin to play video games like never before. You become obsessed with escapism. You write stories constantly and visualize your imagination pouring out your skull like an unstoppable force. You are the oppressed artist stuck in the real world. You read the Harry Potter books back to back in a cycle in between pausing Final Fantasy VIII.

(5) XI, For some inexplicable reason, you begin to dip your feet in insanity. Your brain starts moving at 200mph and nothing else can keep it. You start to feel detached from everyone and everything and suddenly you are the outsider again. You do all your assignments but you have so many PLANS and IDEAS and not enough TIME. You sleep less and less and get a crazed look in your eyes that only you notice. You depress yourself because you will never SUCCEED because there isn't enough TIME and you're not GOOD enough to do everything you're MEANT to do and you HAVE to do. Your thoughts keep you up half the night.

This is a confusing year. You spend a lot of the time thinking to yourself. You take long, long walks and just ponder your life and your decisions and everything you've done so far. You stop talking to your friends as much. You inexplicably stop trusting people as much and start to pride yourself in closing off. You resolve to never cry again.

(6) XII, You start IB and you love the change. You dress brightly and try to act overly positive. It doesn't work too well. This is the year you really stop caring and stop trying to please people. You develop a 'fuck everything' mentality that you will later keep with you. You develop a strong distaste for your whole school and year and become convinced you are above everyone else. You are still awkward and shy and terrible in social situations.

You apply to be first a prefect, and then a head prefect. You get the position of head prefect. You tell your parents at the dinner table and they smile politely. Your first year is relatively easy. You like most of your subjects and you make other friends outside of school who's company you like a lot more than a lot of your school friends. You do graphics in the school's fashion show. You opt not to go to the dinner dance and stay at home and play video games instead.

(7) XIII, You are so close and you need to leave. You cannot stop thinking about the future and the idea of reinvention stresses you out and you try it again and again but you're just too yourself. You become obsessed with life and death everything in between and you can't stop thinking again. Your brain begins to run ahead and nothing can keep up. You never lost that feeling of detachment and it comes on stronger than ever.

You become so tired all the time and just want everything over and done with. You become a bit of a misanthrope and spend all your time complaining. You do your exams and you're just so tired and you can't be fucked to revise but you do and suddenly it's over and you have no attachment to the school and you leave everything behind.

You write about your experiences and they don't seem like you but you remember bits and pieces and the finish was so long ago and the start even longer. And now you wait for your results and you wait for the next part.

F for FREEDOM

As of last monday, i am officially free! I finished off a painstaking 6 stupid hours of exams and went home and celebrated by lying on my bed and staring at the ceiling. The reason it's taken me so long to actually type out my official "freedom" post is because:

• Since Monday, I have watched over 100 episodes of Naruto Shippuden.
• That's it.

I used to be obsessed with naruto and I watched so much anime... this was all before ib and even my second gcse year I think. I was well behind on shippuden and... I managed to catch up in like 3 days. Cool.

It was also our dinner dance (aka prom) on Friday, but since i haven't typed up the finer details of my exciting life, I will backtrack to the Friday before exams, when Lizzy (who I only recently got close to, which is bizarre as we are literally spirit sisters,) invited me, Izzy and Tom to her mom's birthday celebration at this badass hippie-esque place called Dharma Den (Yes, we dressed according and appropriately.) Izzy just uploaded the pictures so I shall share some now actually.

I love fisheye lenses ugh I really want/need one.






This is co cute ahh.



I'm planning to take loads of photos as my "final proper summer" in Hong Kong. I want to document as much as I can and bring cute pics to uni!



I actually adore this picture so much oh my god.



Anyway, so, Friday was dinnerdance. Because I'm not good with formal occasions and the whatnot because of my lack of caringness, I only got my dress Wednesday with my mother. I tend to get a "if it fits it's fine whatever" mentality so I literally just found a random dress and went with it.




With Alex (who organised the dance,) and Ali!



grouppp photo



Another thing is, I'm going to colour my hair tomorrow! Me and Lizzy ordered coloured dye off the internet... last week or so? And we're going to bleach (hairdresser,) and then dye streaks and colours. Super excited, will take loads of pics.



I have also decided that this is healthy summer '11. I normally run ALMOST every day, (which is definitely not every day heh,) but I'm going to be a good healthy child and eat better too! Lizzy agrees and we've made some plans to go hiking and picnicking with lovely healthy food and be good children! I actually always feel so lovely and pure when I eat ~healthy foods~ so hopefully this is good aw - i'm actually going for frozen yogurt with Esme in a bit though ha. (Can't beat some addictions.)



I am also going to try draw one sheet (800x600px) of sketches a day. I'm beginning to develop a style and I need to practice anatomy and facial expressions! I've been doodling in my sketchbook for the last week so hopefully I can keep up this sudden motivation. I'm pretty sure two years of ib killed all inspiration, and now it's come bubbling up again which is lovely.


skiiiiitches



I have tons of summer plans but not too much money. I've applied/asked about a few jobs because I want/need a new laptop for uni. Luckily, most of the people I've made plans with agree, but I still need to budget. I have deduced, however, that the majority of money I spend is transport and food. More walking and less consuming of unhealthy expensive food should help solve that a bit! Planning hikes and cute sleepovers and I may even risk the beach, (I'm afraid of the sun because I tan like crazy and I don't actually like it.)



Another brilliant thing is that my childhood friend Portia, (who I got to see in England again,) is MAYBE coming to Hong Kong in August! I really really hope she does, because it'll be so fun showing her around and everything! I'm going to Thailand with my family this summer, (was actually meant to be Italy, but due to uni being so expensive we changed it... I'm actually not too bothered though, despite my overwhelming fear of the sun, I love thailand at night,) so that should be really good too!



On a final note, I have found some of my summer playlists! All Time Low's album leaked and it's actually perfect summer-y powerpop. I actually have a love for that band that will never die, so I'm actually pleased about it! Completely unrelated, but I'm also going to try be less lazy this summer, heh. A couple of weeks ago my dad gave me a recharge coupon for my phone, and of course, I chucked it somewhere. Yesterday I found out I was very low on phone credit and due to my money issues, (i.e. being broke,) I panicked because I would have to spend the money myself. HOWEVER, a thorough search for front door keys - I got shouted at because I kept losing them... I found 3 in my room oops - revealed that it was hidden under some school work in my cupboard. Success!

Sevens weekends and last days

Listen to this, this or this. (All the same band, deal with it?)

Edit: Just checked my last post because I wasn't sure when I last updated, and I realised I'd left ya'll hanging on my uni offer. Got the offer but had home fee status rejected! Annoying, but that's my motivation!

SEVENS WEEKEND

Me and Sophie! (Who i met last year at the sevens)

Quick recap because not sure if my non-existent readers know what the 7s are: Rugby 7s, annual event, massive event, tickets are an insane market, dress up in costumes, everyone gets drunk, no one watches rugby, stretches friday to sunday.

I sold my saturday though and gave myself a break.

So this was... two weekends ago or something. I was just too lazy to update.

No photos from friday because friday was pretty shitty. We lost half the people we were with, met a few new ones (mostly year 12s from my school i'd already known by sight.) and the night after was boring as hell. Therefore, sold my saturday and was considering selling my sunday.

Rating for friday: C-

Rating for sunday: A

As you can see, I am glad I went! Met up with Esme and Sophie, arrived just past twelve and promptly got tipsy very quickly.

I am aware that so many of my blogs talk about drinking and going out and I must sound like an awful alchy. Swear to god i'm the most boring innocent person ever, I only update after I do something so...

Anyway, tipsy me is me minus all the bitterness and sarcasm (so verging on, "friendly," even,) - a fact loads of people commented on the next day when they expressed surprise at how happily I appeared to greet them when i'm usually bloody miserable.

Christine's friend Emily (from canada who was traveling!) Christine, me (cool don't look at the camera or anything,) and David.

Oh yeah, I did the cat face thing. I did it on both friday and sunday, because I am (1) lazy and it (2) got good feedback and everyone said (3) it was adorable but (4) people kept meowing at me which was just not cool.

With Dylan and Patti (who I met there.) jksagfhsafsa I was like HI I'M LAURA, and she went, Oh, Laura Grant! Obviously ~tumblr famous now~ although I'm not sure how these people find me?

View of stadium! Pretty full.

New Zealand beat England to win by the way. Not that I paid much attention.

Don't know half these people but just goes to show hahah...

Too lazy to rearrange the pictures but here are the beautiful fireworks! I actually love fireworks so much ooh favourite things ever.

In canada we went to watch these fireworks when we were on gibson's, and we'd been waiting for like an hour and me and Hannah were complaining and then they started and I forgot how mad I was :') I used to always watch them from my balcony when I lived in kowloon, or sometimes outside, but there's a difference between standing in the most crowded-ass place ever with cameras and news reporters everywhere and lying on the grass just watching.

This was when Esme was waiting for Aubin... who decided not to sneak in this time apparently HAHA. Tickets are usually really hard to come by until the day itself.

Tori was a proud giraffe! (Other costumes included: spongebobs, disney characters, thomas the tank engines, ronald mcdonald, animals, and there are always really creative ones. I SAW A SWAN QUEEN FROM BLACK SWAN and it maybe made my day.

I actually do remember all of sunday (although the drinks and food are ridiculously expensive, so I mostly cutely had bits of other people's until I was relatively pleasant.) I watched maybe...30 minutes of games altogether which is a bit pathetic, and instead spent most of the time just wandering around. After Friday, i was less inclined to going specifically WITH PEOPLE, and instead just drifted, continuously going between the slope or the seats... I'm sure it was annoying as hell with me wandering like a sad little ghost but it was fun enough for me!

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL

Anyway, I have just had my last day of lessons (tomorrow is "The End" where we watch each other give insufferable performances and listen to teachers talk about how this is the end.) People are already getting nostalgic and upset (Bless Izzy, she was crying yesterday :')) I don't know why but I don't feel sad at all: I've been ready to leave since year 12 and I'm finally leaving and i'm so excited.

I'm actually getting worried uni will suck, since I'm hyping myself up for it so much... but from what I've seen, IF I GET IN, it will be absolutely amazing. I'm so scared I won't get in because I actually need this so much. That thought is the only one sustaining me to be honest ashfgsa HENCE WHY I'M ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT UNI HERE, OOPS.

I made myself self-appointed organiser of pranks this year and we planned out quite a lot (despite loads of bitter haters,) but our head of year pretty much snapped at me regarding the pranks yesterday and left me bitter and grouchy. After I emailed everyone saying pretty much "FUCK IT," I changed my mind and we are just going to do what we can! Won't post here but will post an update after...

Was meant to go out all night tonight (well, I'd technically never asked my parents...) but now i'm pretty sick (although I still went to school today...) so looks like that's out of the question. And it's 9.54 already heh... so instead we're meeting for breakfast at 5.30am (not a typo,) and going to school early! Momma made chocolate rice krispies for our school lunch tomorrow (yes I have already had one.) so hopefully it won't be a sucky day, especially as we've sorted out our skit finally (very lame but may be funny...depends...)

(I plan to maybe get tipsy at breakfast, heh.)

Stepping Stone

A few updates on life and things.

Just kidding, massive post about university and me and that's all it is about!

Last night, I was checking my email (which I have been doing obsessive-compulsively lately,) and I noticed I had received an email, from the undergraduate admissions office at University of Warwick.

Heart pounding, fingers shaking, don't be disappointed don't get your hopes up whatifididntgetitiflewallthewayout ... oh god, i'mafailurewhatamigoingtodo...

The email I received is as following:

We are about to make your offer for Film Studies and we are writing to let you know that we have your fee information which will be referred to colleagues for assessing.

Does it seem like an acceptance? Yes, I believe so.

Did I want to get my hopes up and be madly disappointed? No, I did not.

"Your offer"

What if, I'd pondered, it was a REJECTION offer? No, that does not make sense, no, there is no such thing. I still thought it.

No more emails that night.

This morning. Spring to my computer. Turn on. Internet freezes and I am angry and I just want to check but I KNOW there won't be anything and I'll just return to my antsy state and -

Inbox (2)

I stop pulling my jeans on. (Great visuals for you all there...) I click on the inbox as my internet freezes. First email in the inbox (aka latest one sent,) is from the Warwick Undergrad office.

Thank you for your application to study at the University of Warwick. I am delighted to confirm that the University is making you a conditional offer of a place -

Stop. Re-read. Re-read again. Scroll down, looking for the loljk. Catch sight of the one phrase I never want to read again: overseas student.

Cannot decide if I am overjoyed or disappointed. Settle on both.

Here is what the future looks like:

• I get in. My review for fee status is accepted. Attend with local fees life is fab etc. <- Preferred Scenario.
• I get in. My review for fee status is rejected. I can a) stay at the cheapest accommodation and spend very little to compensate for the ridiculous 3x fee my parents will have to pay, b) Try and get a job whilst I'm there just to do something (can we even do that,) or c) Earn a bit of spending money over the summer.
• I get 36 points but not a 6 in higher english. what. do. I. do. here...
• I don't get enough points. I panic because I don't know what to do in this case.

Enough pessimistic thinking. Just written a 2 hour commentary. But in an hour and a half...

Things to do once we go on study leave that I actually will do because I've written them down:

• Get tumblr password changed by sister, (Yes, I am going there.)
• Deactivate Facebook
• Log out of Flickr (That will be enough to stop my lazy ass going on there.)
• Uncheck 'Remember me,' or whatever on MSN.
• Delete ONTD off my bookmarks ...

UNTIL THEN:

Rugby 7s on Friday. Massive social event.

I have people going on Friday, but not sure who's on Saturday.

I haven't asked my parents if I can stay out yet.

I'm quite excited.

I will take lots of photos.

I probably will not blog until then.

P.S. This is my 10th blog post. Furthest I've ever come. Exciting.

Miserable blog post.

Well, isn't this fun.

Quick post. halfway through one of the shittier weeks of my life. My final film is due.

I wish it weren't, I'm not too happy with it, but at this point I really just want it all done. Then it's Innovation, and then I'm off to the uk for a week. thank god. Although i'm having another private battle to do with universities. I hate this :(

I was listening to Zelda World Radio whilst I started my english essay (and which I didn't finish uh. Jesus christ, a 2 hour essay? No...) and I'm just listening to video game music now. I really miss this part of my life !!! I don't know, I always say IB hasn't changed my life a lot, but I don't know why I don't play all my games anymore... I need to get my consoles out of my sister's room !!!

I had this conversation with my french tutor, the idea that all little girls wanted to be princesses. I was never really a princess person, but all I want right now is to go galavanting off on a horse with a sword on some grand adventure. I am far too much an escapist for my own good. Everything is just so neh right now.

This has been an ugly and boring post so here, have a picture:

alpha dog and a megalomaniac

I have like 6 weeks of school left ! That is weird.

Spent whole of yesterday filming, got loads done and I've been editing, since we're getting really close to final date :s It also very almost clashes with when I leave to UK for my interview.

Speaking of which, bleh, I found out recently that another girl who had also gotten the same offer for an interview chose not to do it and submitted her essay only instead, actually got the offer. What the fuck is the point of me doing an interview then, when I could have not?

(Because I want to take a week off school - not going to lie - and because I want to see the university. And go back to England!♡ - Where I haven't been for uh, 8 years?)

I don't even know if I want to do the warwick course now though... obviously for the future it is better but my film teacher mentioned how it was very very theory based. I still think loughborough's course sounds lovely... but there are a lot of people from school here going there. Last thing I want.

Last night I went out with the people I went out with last week, (which I did not write about,) and met a bunch of new people, who were all lovely. Esme always knows nice people, it's lovely to not be around the ugly personalities at school !! Megan started feeling pretty sick and we had to put her in a cab home which was kind of shitty, and there were loads of creepers lurking, but overall it was fun ! Until my dad called me at 3 and asked if I knew it was 3, (I didn't,) and I had to walk ages to find a cab. I did my usual tactic of drinking a lot early, and then slowly sobering up. I then came home, showered, (love feeling clean ♡) ate some bread/drank water, and then, uh, drew zombies. And then I went to bed.

And then I woke up and did the usual stalking on facebook to see if i'd met that person and whether I should friend them or not.

Ooh my skins episode has downloaded! I never actually watched the first two generations (and don't plan to. Everyone I know has basically described the plots in full detail so I'm a pro without watching it...) I love this generation of characters ! I really decided to watch it because I thought alex arnold was cute ... yes, he does wear a wig but uh. And I like the other characters too - all are complex enough so they're good characters. I'm probably going to be off to watch it in a minute.

March soon... and my real french oral exam soon. Peeing myself out of fear but. uh. But let's think positively and list why march will be good:

Anberlin 12th (Same day as innovation... uh...oh....) Yeah I need to figure that one out.

England! 15th-19th

MGMT 30th

Rugby 7s - If i go. If I find people to go with really ...

Filler Blog

Decided to write an entry even though not much new has happened this week. Which has, by the way, felt like the longest week ever.

I've been a bit panicky concerning my realisation that I have a shitload of work to do both before and for my final exams. (I still haven't done much about it though ♡.) I have to do my final film by mid march though, perhaps the most pressuring thing. It's just so hard to film ugh, actors are sometimes not free and getting everything done in time is hard. Sounds awful, but I wish I were working alone on this. I tend to work way better by myself, and I know that if I didn't feel trapped like i do now, I would have changed the plot and story several times. (I may be also working on a secret film now, who knows.)

I read the first Hunger Games book on Sunday night♡ (I will keep this spoiler free!) and I literally could not put it down. I neglected sleep and slept in Monday morning instead (Which is okay since I didn't have a lesson.) I ordered the next two (Weren't in stock anywhere,) picked them up Thursday, and finished Mockingjay Friday afternoon. (So, yesterday.) Really a story that just sticks with you. I'd had warnings of Mockingjay being awful, and i do agree that it took a massive dynamic shift and just got confusing. The lack of development (or anything really...) with katniss also bothered me to no end, and I wasn't very satisfied with the ending. I'm glad I read it though, I now know how it ended and can construct my own ideal version of how things ended, (taking place in my head right now.)

So, it's raining outside, and has been cold/miserably/rainy all week. First time I've gone for a run since... uh... last weekend I think? Felt like i was about to just drop, jesus, so tiring when you haven't gone in a while. Need to get back into the habit and stop being so lazy though. I keep telling myself that come summer I will definitely be back into my old routine, but maybe i'm making excuses. Tonight I can either go out though, or stay home. (Depends if i'm even allowed out but since no one else will be home my parents probably won't mind..?) Right now, home seems comfortable and nice, but who knows. I also want to go to MIX and get a smoothie!♡ I actually sat on my behind on the website just fawning over the flawless smoothies.

In terms of people, i've been stuck in prefect interviews for a good portion of the week, so haven't felt the overwhelming desire to just shank someone really. This is a very nostalgic time of year for me though, I can't remember if it happens every year but... and sometimes i end up missing people and hating others and i'm not even sure. I don't usually get attached very easily, (unlike my love for good literature/video games/films...) but if I do, i really get attached.

Brought all my colours to school and actually was doodling again in class on friday. I haven't drawn or even doodled for so ages, so when I came home i did up my doodle properly!

I've been listening to the used a lot, (just found and added Lies for the Liars to my iPod last week) and they always same to bring out the inner wannabe alex pardee in me, (obviously because of the album cover, I know.)

I'm so glad it's the weekend, but it's already 4.30 on Saturday :<>

February School Break

Oops, haven't blogged in a while.

I won't lie and say I've been busy because I haven't. I've been lazy. Not busy.

Last week was a bit of a whirlwind, I lost my ipod two fridays ago ! Anyone who knows me knows I am pretty much attached by the ear, so I was pretty pissed off. Luckily, my ipod was very close to death, and frequently corrupted, so redownloading my whole library, (don't have enough hard drive space for my music ._.) wasn't TOO awful.

I lost it on lamma island because I was taking photos! Ironically, as I set off (by myself, as we were with a whole bunch of people and I am antisocial and have no friends, ) I considered listening to music before changing my mind. I need to stop trusting pockets. I took zillions of photos and had fun editing them all though, so that took my mind off my ~trauma~ a little.

Will try and spread my photos out a little so I'm not attacking your eyes.

I really took a lot though..

I wrote a post on tumblr about it too, but I really really like taking photos of strangers. Not in a creepy way, it's because they're unaware. I like taking pictures when people don't know, because you can capture that naturalness that just isn't there when someone knows the lens is pointed at them. I always say, Stop Posing! but it's a difficult thing to do.

Last Saturday, after our family dinner, I went down to watch a friend perform at a free gig. Those were my intentions at least, as I managed to get myself so lost that I missed her set...

The other band we saw was not bad at all, but I wish I could've seen them ugh. Wandering around central alone after 10 isn't so fun.

Chinese New year holidays passed by reaaaally quickly, and it's weird that it was probably my last one here ! I have so many childhood memories linked to celebrating chinese new year!

Actually made my sister watch a lion dance against her will on the last day, just because I realised how much i'd miss hearing those stupid drums ._.

It's getting cold again and I've just come back from a run - forced myself since I haven't run in a bit. I made my excuse yesterday that the air pollution index was very high (and it was,) but I don't want to get out of the habit since I already have to push myself :<>

I've decided to be more positive this year. I'm so sick of being so bothered by the same people, I don't need ugly personalities just pissing me off. I will be heading off soon and I pretty much know at this point, who I'm going to bother keeping in contact with (depending if they will with me too...) so it's really this idea that post-graduation, it will be a sense of freedom :*

Since i've been downloading (or redownloading) / transferring / uploading a ton of music to itunes (had to clear out my d-drive first,) I've been listening to a lot of stuff I haven't been listening to in ages. I've also found songs I didn't know existed. As in, bonus songs, or songs I just never happened to sync to my ipod for some reason. I always end up loving these songs more, I guess it's just because I've become so used to the tracklist of an album, and suddenly i'm presented with a new song. Off-tangent, but just a thought !

Next week should be the same. We've had so many holidays/breaks that it's quite strange to be at school for a while. Luckily I have a week off in march where I go for my university interview ! I'm quite worried though, had my film REAL iop, and uh, managed to forget about it... I mean, I remembered the night before. I had done my research but still, it was a bit of a hot mess. I was panicking so much, and in the feedback email he'd sent, i may have potentially missed a category, meaning I can only get a level 5... I'm predicted a 7 at the moment from mr. w's point of view, but if i get a tough examiner ...

BUT we've got ice cream and this amazing mango/melon juice so i'm going to sign off on a positive note !

Good evening.

I always always try blogging. I always start with this message. I then post 3 more times and forget about it.

I am always inspired by the idea that I can one day go back and look at my life in full through posts and photos. This is a good time to start - 2011 should be the most monumental year for me. 2011 is the year i will - excuse the cliché - leave the nest forever. I graduate (hopefully, at least) in May. I will go off to a university (hopefully, again) located on the other side of the world.

So this will be my documentation. As usual, this is a standard introduction post.

This is pretty much what I look like most of the time.

I'm obnoxious and annoying but secretly sort of nice (if I think you deserve it) and I suck at explaining myself.

So I was discussing with a friend today what era we'd best be suited to live in. Although he said I was suited for the future, I think I belong more in the far past. This generation is weak. Kids barely go outside and PLAY. Technology can't emulate broken bones, scraped knees and falls off monkey bars. I'm glad I grew up the generation i did.

I love the idea of adventure and danger. Pirates, cowboys and knights are amongst some of the most popular concepts of escapism and it's easy to see why. I want to be a pirate!

Completely off topic, I've destroyed my foot. I'm not quite sure how, but just as I started getting into a habit of running daily - a four day consecutive record - I do something stupid. It's been 3 days, and I think it's getting better. Meanwhile I'm gracefully limping around the place feeling sorry for myself.

Next week we have a week off school for chinese new year, which is the celebration of (obviously) the chinese new year ! Traditionally, unmarried girls get red packets with money from married people, so you can rack up money here. I don't get as much as some as my chinese family isn't very rich, but it's always nice to have a week off and have an excuse to feast. Friday is our girl's night, skittles vodka and jello shots whilst playing a jersey shore drinking game (made by me...) Monday I'm doing a photoshoot of two friends, (well a friend and a friend of a friend,) and after that the week is open. Although me and Catherine have decided we are going to learn to write in hieroglyphics. Not sure why uhh.

Hmm i can never sign these things off nicely. This is getting long/ i have homework/ i still want to be a pirate? :)