I've been a bit panicky concerning my realisation that I have a shitload of work to do both before and for my final exams. (I still haven't done much about it though ♡.) I have to do my final film by mid march though, perhaps the most pressuring thing. It's just so hard to film ugh, actors are sometimes not free and getting everything done in time is hard. Sounds awful, but I wish I were working alone on this. I tend to work way better by myself, and I know that if I didn't feel trapped like i do now, I would have changed the plot and story several times. (I may be also working on a secret film now, who knows.)
I read the first Hunger Games book on Sunday night♡ (I will keep this spoiler free!) and I literally could not put it down. I neglected sleep and slept in Monday morning instead (Which is okay since I didn't have a lesson.) I ordered the next two (Weren't in stock anywhere,) picked them up Thursday, and finished Mockingjay Friday afternoon. (So, yesterday.) Really a story that just sticks with you. I'd had warnings of Mockingjay being awful, and i do agree that it took a massive dynamic shift and just got confusing. The lack of development (or anything really...) with katniss also bothered me to no end, and I wasn't very satisfied with the ending. I'm glad I read it though, I now know how it ended and can construct my own ideal version of how things ended, (taking place in my head right now.)
So, it's raining outside, and has been cold/miserably/rainy all week. First time I've gone for a run since... uh... last weekend I think? Felt like i was about to just drop, jesus, so tiring when you haven't gone in a while. Need to get back into the habit and stop being so lazy though. I keep telling myself that come summer I will definitely be back into my old routine, but maybe i'm making excuses. Tonight I can either go out though, or stay home. (Depends if i'm even allowed out but since no one else will be home my parents probably won't mind..?) Right now, home seems comfortable and nice, but who knows. I also want to go to MIX and get a smoothie!♡ I actually sat on my behind on the website just fawning over the flawless smoothies.
In terms of people, i've been stuck in prefect interviews for a good portion of the week, so haven't felt the overwhelming desire to just shank someone really. This is a very nostalgic time of year for me though, I can't remember if it happens every year but... and sometimes i end up missing people and hating others and i'm not even sure. I don't usually get attached very easily, (unlike my love for good literature/video games/films...) but if I do, i really get attached.
Brought all my colours to school and actually was doodling again in class on friday. I haven't drawn or even doodled for so ages, so when I came home i did up my doodle properly! 
I've been listening to the used a lot, (just found and added Lies for the Liars to my iPod last week) and they always same to bring out the inner wannabe alex pardee in me, (obviously because of the album cover, I know.)
I'm so glad it's the weekend, but it's already 4.30 on Saturday :<>
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