alpha dog and a megalomaniac

I have like 6 weeks of school left ! That is weird.

Spent whole of yesterday filming, got loads done and I've been editing, since we're getting really close to final date :s It also very almost clashes with when I leave to UK for my interview.

Speaking of which, bleh, I found out recently that another girl who had also gotten the same offer for an interview chose not to do it and submitted her essay only instead, actually got the offer. What the fuck is the point of me doing an interview then, when I could have not?

(Because I want to take a week off school - not going to lie - and because I want to see the university. And go back to England!♡ - Where I haven't been for uh, 8 years?)

I don't even know if I want to do the warwick course now though... obviously for the future it is better but my film teacher mentioned how it was very very theory based. I still think loughborough's course sounds lovely... but there are a lot of people from school here going there. Last thing I want.

Last night I went out with the people I went out with last week, (which I did not write about,) and met a bunch of new people, who were all lovely. Esme always knows nice people, it's lovely to not be around the ugly personalities at school !! Megan started feeling pretty sick and we had to put her in a cab home which was kind of shitty, and there were loads of creepers lurking, but overall it was fun ! Until my dad called me at 3 and asked if I knew it was 3, (I didn't,) and I had to walk ages to find a cab. I did my usual tactic of drinking a lot early, and then slowly sobering up. I then came home, showered, (love feeling clean ♡) ate some bread/drank water, and then, uh, drew zombies. And then I went to bed.

And then I woke up and did the usual stalking on facebook to see if i'd met that person and whether I should friend them or not.

Ooh my skins episode has downloaded! I never actually watched the first two generations (and don't plan to. Everyone I know has basically described the plots in full detail so I'm a pro without watching it...) I love this generation of characters ! I really decided to watch it because I thought alex arnold was cute ... yes, he does wear a wig but uh. And I like the other characters too - all are complex enough so they're good characters. I'm probably going to be off to watch it in a minute.

March soon... and my real french oral exam soon. Peeing myself out of fear but. uh. But let's think positively and list why march will be good:

Anberlin 12th (Same day as innovation... uh...oh....) Yeah I need to figure that one out.

England! 15th-19th

MGMT 30th

Rugby 7s - If i go. If I find people to go with really ...

Filler Blog

Decided to write an entry even though not much new has happened this week. Which has, by the way, felt like the longest week ever.

I've been a bit panicky concerning my realisation that I have a shitload of work to do both before and for my final exams. (I still haven't done much about it though ♡.) I have to do my final film by mid march though, perhaps the most pressuring thing. It's just so hard to film ugh, actors are sometimes not free and getting everything done in time is hard. Sounds awful, but I wish I were working alone on this. I tend to work way better by myself, and I know that if I didn't feel trapped like i do now, I would have changed the plot and story several times. (I may be also working on a secret film now, who knows.)

I read the first Hunger Games book on Sunday night♡ (I will keep this spoiler free!) and I literally could not put it down. I neglected sleep and slept in Monday morning instead (Which is okay since I didn't have a lesson.) I ordered the next two (Weren't in stock anywhere,) picked them up Thursday, and finished Mockingjay Friday afternoon. (So, yesterday.) Really a story that just sticks with you. I'd had warnings of Mockingjay being awful, and i do agree that it took a massive dynamic shift and just got confusing. The lack of development (or anything really...) with katniss also bothered me to no end, and I wasn't very satisfied with the ending. I'm glad I read it though, I now know how it ended and can construct my own ideal version of how things ended, (taking place in my head right now.)

So, it's raining outside, and has been cold/miserably/rainy all week. First time I've gone for a run since... uh... last weekend I think? Felt like i was about to just drop, jesus, so tiring when you haven't gone in a while. Need to get back into the habit and stop being so lazy though. I keep telling myself that come summer I will definitely be back into my old routine, but maybe i'm making excuses. Tonight I can either go out though, or stay home. (Depends if i'm even allowed out but since no one else will be home my parents probably won't mind..?) Right now, home seems comfortable and nice, but who knows. I also want to go to MIX and get a smoothie!♡ I actually sat on my behind on the website just fawning over the flawless smoothies.

In terms of people, i've been stuck in prefect interviews for a good portion of the week, so haven't felt the overwhelming desire to just shank someone really. This is a very nostalgic time of year for me though, I can't remember if it happens every year but... and sometimes i end up missing people and hating others and i'm not even sure. I don't usually get attached very easily, (unlike my love for good literature/video games/films...) but if I do, i really get attached.

Brought all my colours to school and actually was doodling again in class on friday. I haven't drawn or even doodled for so ages, so when I came home i did up my doodle properly!

I've been listening to the used a lot, (just found and added Lies for the Liars to my iPod last week) and they always same to bring out the inner wannabe alex pardee in me, (obviously because of the album cover, I know.)

I'm so glad it's the weekend, but it's already 4.30 on Saturday :<>

February School Break

Oops, haven't blogged in a while.

I won't lie and say I've been busy because I haven't. I've been lazy. Not busy.

Last week was a bit of a whirlwind, I lost my ipod two fridays ago ! Anyone who knows me knows I am pretty much attached by the ear, so I was pretty pissed off. Luckily, my ipod was very close to death, and frequently corrupted, so redownloading my whole library, (don't have enough hard drive space for my music ._.) wasn't TOO awful.

I lost it on lamma island because I was taking photos! Ironically, as I set off (by myself, as we were with a whole bunch of people and I am antisocial and have no friends, ) I considered listening to music before changing my mind. I need to stop trusting pockets. I took zillions of photos and had fun editing them all though, so that took my mind off my ~trauma~ a little.

Will try and spread my photos out a little so I'm not attacking your eyes.

I really took a lot though..

I wrote a post on tumblr about it too, but I really really like taking photos of strangers. Not in a creepy way, it's because they're unaware. I like taking pictures when people don't know, because you can capture that naturalness that just isn't there when someone knows the lens is pointed at them. I always say, Stop Posing! but it's a difficult thing to do.

Last Saturday, after our family dinner, I went down to watch a friend perform at a free gig. Those were my intentions at least, as I managed to get myself so lost that I missed her set...

The other band we saw was not bad at all, but I wish I could've seen them ugh. Wandering around central alone after 10 isn't so fun.

Chinese New year holidays passed by reaaaally quickly, and it's weird that it was probably my last one here ! I have so many childhood memories linked to celebrating chinese new year!

Actually made my sister watch a lion dance against her will on the last day, just because I realised how much i'd miss hearing those stupid drums ._.

It's getting cold again and I've just come back from a run - forced myself since I haven't run in a bit. I made my excuse yesterday that the air pollution index was very high (and it was,) but I don't want to get out of the habit since I already have to push myself :<>

I've decided to be more positive this year. I'm so sick of being so bothered by the same people, I don't need ugly personalities just pissing me off. I will be heading off soon and I pretty much know at this point, who I'm going to bother keeping in contact with (depending if they will with me too...) so it's really this idea that post-graduation, it will be a sense of freedom :*

Since i've been downloading (or redownloading) / transferring / uploading a ton of music to itunes (had to clear out my d-drive first,) I've been listening to a lot of stuff I haven't been listening to in ages. I've also found songs I didn't know existed. As in, bonus songs, or songs I just never happened to sync to my ipod for some reason. I always end up loving these songs more, I guess it's just because I've become so used to the tracklist of an album, and suddenly i'm presented with a new song. Off-tangent, but just a thought !

Next week should be the same. We've had so many holidays/breaks that it's quite strange to be at school for a while. Luckily I have a week off in march where I go for my university interview ! I'm quite worried though, had my film REAL iop, and uh, managed to forget about it... I mean, I remembered the night before. I had done my research but still, it was a bit of a hot mess. I was panicking so much, and in the feedback email he'd sent, i may have potentially missed a category, meaning I can only get a level 5... I'm predicted a 7 at the moment from mr. w's point of view, but if i get a tough examiner ...

BUT we've got ice cream and this amazing mango/melon juice so i'm going to sign off on a positive note !

Outlying islands

As usual, am blogging whilst completely other tasks. Apologies in advance for general incoherentness ... not that i am coherent most of the time anyway~

Yesterday we hit the island of Cheung Chau, one of the outlying islands in Hong Kong! It was a big group of people, half of which turned up quite late, and most of which stayed the night.
I did not as I am antisocial and generally am uncomfortable staying overnight in other places.


Island of Cheung Chau

So we met up late after sorting out some canada app stuff for Esme (Do not apply to Canada ever, jesus it is the most tiring thing ever. I said a few times how it was an intelligence test to sort out who was able to apply) I got a hot chocolate by the pier too, which was good since I woke up feeling like shit, and generally did not help myself by going for a run. Apparently it's flu season.

We took the 4.40 ferry and arrived, first checking into their (and the only) hotel. Fun fact: it also apparently has the highest suicide rate of any hotel in the world, perhaps why they make you pay upfront.



Our lot got an upgrade as we were a big group of teens and they wanted us to spread the word and make the hotel appeal to a younger group. From what i saw, the rooms weren't bad or anything.



My mom actually grew up on Cheung Chau and my grandmother lived there for a while (my great grandmother still lives there.) so I'd been before a fair few times, but we still went to explore a bit, although it was getting a bit dark. Since it was basically a big group of friends and friends's friends, I met a few people which was cool as well. Met a fellow photographer (who was team Nikon to my Canon though,) and we bonded over how photographers were always the slowest people when walking in a bunch, as we lag behind taking photos of obscure things. We then proceeded to do exactly that.



We then found a place to have dinner (after almost everyone stopped to buy food anyway, or other cute touristy things.) and i then stuffed myself full, although I didn't really eat that much. looking back now i think it was the milkshake hmm.



The others went to the pirate caves, but since they were quite far out, me and Megan decided to head back. We accidentally sort of took the slow ferry, so we sat outside and froze our asses off, but it was so pretty!!




Anyway, it may be noticed that my photos are all square now. For some reason (too much deviantArt stalking perhaps,) I've decided I like square photos. I'm not so sure at the moment though. They're a bit annoying to look at on facebook. I've been messing around so much in photoshop as well.

Onn Tuesday, i went down to the flower market, which is a big festivally-market thing each Chinese New Year, where you can buy giant inflated things (that you will never need,) and flowers and food and just odd things. It was ridiculously busy, so I only really stopped by.





And one picture i took out my window the other day because the clouds were so pretty!!



Today is the ~last day of the year~ in terms of the Chinese new year, so we're having my grandmother over, (chinese one, obviously,) and then Friday I am going to Lamma island with the family and friends etc. We also get our red packets, which is good as I have conveniently spent all my money.