Or at least, I would be, had I not quickly (and efficient, might I brag - not that it's really anything to brag about,) learned to distinguish between planning to do things and actually, you know, doing them.
Somethings things don't work out the way you plan/envision/manically dream up as you stare out the bus window when a deep song comes on as you pretend you're in a music video.
And the reason I'm saying all this is, well, I've gone ahead and dreamt up a silly list of plans again and if they fall through or don't work out as envisioned - which is most likely to happen, as I don't so much make 'plans,' as 'very rough outlines' - then that's fine because hopefully I'll have had a little adventure out of it. Speaking of which, I sure do plan a lot of things and adventures for someone who really doesn't have the funds for it.
The main gist of it, is this is the rough outline of my next term:
(Yes, for someone who is as scatty as me, I sure do love putting on a facade of being somewhat organised and a thinking-ahead type person.)
(1) Study study study. Exam time, which tends to throw me into a state of mania unparalleled to anything ever seen before. I'm kidding, it's not that bad. I sleep less and talk more and huddle over posters and mind maps and pages of notes and - in this case, - watch films and walk around with a wide-eyed, slightly insane gaze as I ponder the purpose behind paracinema or the true definition of excess. I also tend to paint a lot of creepy things. We all have our ways to deal with stress okay whatever.
(2) Test low-budget horror film. Low-budget as in no budget because I'm fulfilling the quota of being a broke college student and actually am this term. Test because I'm not planning to revolutionise anything or even make a legit terrifying film. I just want to play with techniques and experiment with what I can do. It's been too long since I've had a proper "project," and when it goes too long, it drives me absolutely mad. I need a baby to focus on! (Not literally. Reddit's 'what's the worst pain you've ever felt,' thread may have left me shaking and terrified of childbirth and frequent flying has made me pretty much just not like babies.)
(3) Explore, take cute photos, become an adventurer! (God damn it, I'm like the awful lovechild of all those cute wildlife flickr/tumblr hipster photos but bear with me,) Planning to bulk order disposable cameras and capture the last term, mixing them up so it's a fun surprise when they're developed. Go to new places and create lists of things and goals and objectives - like feed ducks, and take a photo of x, y, z and so on, - and just take it easy with a picnic and sitting by the grass. How cute. And maybe needed, concerning (1)
So now we've got the future (lol) out the way, what's been going on with my past? You see, I've gotten into the bad habit of getting very good at blogging about entirely nothing. Whilst my thoughts and stuff are interesting to me and I like writing them down because the inside of my head is generally a coherence train wreck, I know it's probably not that interesting to my "regular readers" - I was surprised to find I had some too. Love you guys!
No one is really ready for this picture and I'm pretty sure i'm 0.001 seconds into a blink or something but it's so unprepared and it's cute. Had a girly lunch and catch up with the girls, and then we headed out after that night.
When I say 'the girls,' it's always lovely because no matter how long we go without properly speaking, it's never awkward when we finally get together and share stories. Fun updates and gossip (and bitching lol we're girls okay,) are pretty much guaranteed. Also saw Ollie and Brendan and Chris that night, as well as the lamma gang at $10 vodka (Shot every time I've mentioned that phrase on my blog...)
Everyone somehow ended up ridiculous drunk and hungover and sick the next day (except me god BLESS still not getting hangovers?!) and the next day I also had sushi with Ali and Izzy WHICH IS ALWAYS GOOD BECAUSE FUCKING HELL I MISS SUSHI SO MUCH IN ENGLAND.
Hong Kong skyline from TST. How pretty. Not that it's been pretty recently at all with the dumb humidity and heat and bam, today there was a freak amber rainstorm and the tree next to my window kept banging on it.
Aw, the view from my window. I keep forgetting about my seaview because Coventry is in the middle of England and nowhere near the sea. I mean, I don't like being in the sea much but I love the concept and it's pretty to look at. (God damn it, I'm simultaneously so deep and so shallow.)
Night view walking home. This was such a nice walk. The wind was blowing everywhere and it was cool and I was staring at the view thinking about life and stuff as you do. I'm in such a questioning/existential mood as of late.
In other, small news, I have begun the game of 'How many dvds can you hide in your suitcase before your parents get annoyed,' also known as packing to the ordinary person. Esme's coming over tonight (yes, it's 12.42 already but whatever,) and unfortunately, our Disneyland plans may fall through based on shitty weather. (See: freak amber rainstorm.) Other than that, I leave early Wednesday morning! So excited to be back in cool weather and no humidity and not a lot of people. I really miss England where I'm gone. It's funny how I cling to new homes really quickly and form new links. I'm like a country chameleon.
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