My life has gotten relatively strange(r) and more and more like a bad teen drama. I haven't updated. There's a lot to say and it's too much effort to say it.
I have the flu.
Post-modern things I can't relate, like summer camp in coastal states. Alcohol and coffee beans, dance floors and magazines.
Monday, April 30, 2012
Monday, April 16, 2012
Idealism
I really am the most ridiculous idealist. I am, in almost every way, the silly teenage girl with the big dreams and the bigger, constantly active imagination. Throw in a pinch of obsessive psychoanalysing and a dash of arguable lunacy and we have a recipe for ridiculous expectations and a one way journey to letdown.
Or at least, I would be, had I not quickly (and efficient, might I brag - not that it's really anything to brag about,) learned to distinguish between planning to do things and actually, you know, doing them.
Somethings things don't work out the way you plan/envision/manically dream up as you stare out the bus window when a deep song comes on as you pretend you're in a music video.
And the reason I'm saying all this is, well, I've gone ahead and dreamt up a silly list of plans again and if they fall through or don't work out as envisioned - which is most likely to happen, as I don't so much make 'plans,' as 'very rough outlines' - then that's fine because hopefully I'll have had a little adventure out of it. Speaking of which, I sure do plan a lot of things and adventures for someone who really doesn't have the funds for it.
The main gist of it, is this is the rough outline of my next term:
(Yes, for someone who is as scatty as me, I sure do love putting on a facade of being somewhat organised and a thinking-ahead type person.)
So now we've got the future (lol) out the way, what's been going on with my past? You see, I've gotten into the bad habit of getting very good at blogging about entirely nothing. Whilst my thoughts and stuff are interesting to me and I like writing them down because the inside of my head is generally a coherence train wreck, I know it's probably not that interesting to my "regular readers" - I was surprised to find I had some too. Love you guys!
No one is really ready for this picture and I'm pretty sure i'm 0.001 seconds into a blink or something but it's so unprepared and it's cute. Had a girly lunch and catch up with the girls, and then we headed out after that night.
When I say 'the girls,' it's always lovely because no matter how long we go without properly speaking, it's never awkward when we finally get together and share stories. Fun updates and gossip (and bitching lol we're girls okay,) are pretty much guaranteed. Also saw Ollie and Brendan and Chris that night, as well as the lamma gang at $10 vodka (Shot every time I've mentioned that phrase on my blog...)
Everyone somehow ended up ridiculous drunk and hungover and sick the next day (except me god BLESS still not getting hangovers?!) and the next day I also had sushi with Ali and Izzy WHICH IS ALWAYS GOOD BECAUSE FUCKING HELL I MISS SUSHI SO MUCH IN ENGLAND.
Hong Kong skyline from TST. How pretty. Not that it's been pretty recently at all with the dumb humidity and heat and bam, today there was a freak amber rainstorm and the tree next to my window kept banging on it.
Aw, the view from my window. I keep forgetting about my seaview because Coventry is in the middle of England and nowhere near the sea. I mean, I don't like being in the sea much but I love the concept and it's pretty to look at. (God damn it, I'm simultaneously so deep and so shallow.)
Night view walking home. This was such a nice walk. The wind was blowing everywhere and it was cool and I was staring at the view thinking about life and stuff as you do. I'm in such a questioning/existential mood as of late.
In other, small news, I have begun the game of 'How many dvds can you hide in your suitcase before your parents get annoyed,' also known as packing to the ordinary person. Esme's coming over tonight (yes, it's 12.42 already but whatever,) and unfortunately, our Disneyland plans may fall through based on shitty weather. (See: freak amber rainstorm.) Other than that, I leave early Wednesday morning! So excited to be back in cool weather and no humidity and not a lot of people. I really miss England where I'm gone. It's funny how I cling to new homes really quickly and form new links. I'm like a country chameleon.
Or at least, I would be, had I not quickly (and efficient, might I brag - not that it's really anything to brag about,) learned to distinguish between planning to do things and actually, you know, doing them.
Somethings things don't work out the way you plan/envision/manically dream up as you stare out the bus window when a deep song comes on as you pretend you're in a music video.
And the reason I'm saying all this is, well, I've gone ahead and dreamt up a silly list of plans again and if they fall through or don't work out as envisioned - which is most likely to happen, as I don't so much make 'plans,' as 'very rough outlines' - then that's fine because hopefully I'll have had a little adventure out of it. Speaking of which, I sure do plan a lot of things and adventures for someone who really doesn't have the funds for it.
The main gist of it, is this is the rough outline of my next term:
(Yes, for someone who is as scatty as me, I sure do love putting on a facade of being somewhat organised and a thinking-ahead type person.)
(1) Study study study. Exam time, which tends to throw me into a state of mania unparalleled to anything ever seen before. I'm kidding, it's not that bad. I sleep less and talk more and huddle over posters and mind maps and pages of notes and - in this case, - watch films and walk around with a wide-eyed, slightly insane gaze as I ponder the purpose behind paracinema or the true definition of excess. I also tend to paint a lot of creepy things. We all have our ways to deal with stress okay whatever.
(2) Test low-budget horror film. Low-budget as in no budget because I'm fulfilling the quota of being a broke college student and actually am this term. Test because I'm not planning to revolutionise anything or even make a legit terrifying film. I just want to play with techniques and experiment with what I can do. It's been too long since I've had a proper "project," and when it goes too long, it drives me absolutely mad. I need a baby to focus on! (Not literally. Reddit's 'what's the worst pain you've ever felt,' thread may have left me shaking and terrified of childbirth and frequent flying has made me pretty much just not like babies.)
(3) Explore, take cute photos, become an adventurer! (God damn it, I'm like the awful lovechild of all those cute wildlife flickr/tumblr hipster photos but bear with me,) Planning to bulk order disposable cameras and capture the last term, mixing them up so it's a fun surprise when they're developed. Go to new places and create lists of things and goals and objectives - like feed ducks, and take a photo of x, y, z and so on, - and just take it easy with a picnic and sitting by the grass. How cute. And maybe needed, concerning (1)
So now we've got the future (lol) out the way, what's been going on with my past? You see, I've gotten into the bad habit of getting very good at blogging about entirely nothing. Whilst my thoughts and stuff are interesting to me and I like writing them down because the inside of my head is generally a coherence train wreck, I know it's probably not that interesting to my "regular readers" - I was surprised to find I had some too. Love you guys!
No one is really ready for this picture and I'm pretty sure i'm 0.001 seconds into a blink or something but it's so unprepared and it's cute. Had a girly lunch and catch up with the girls, and then we headed out after that night.
When I say 'the girls,' it's always lovely because no matter how long we go without properly speaking, it's never awkward when we finally get together and share stories. Fun updates and gossip (and bitching lol we're girls okay,) are pretty much guaranteed. Also saw Ollie and Brendan and Chris that night, as well as the lamma gang at $10 vodka (Shot every time I've mentioned that phrase on my blog...)
Everyone somehow ended up ridiculous drunk and hungover and sick the next day (except me god BLESS still not getting hangovers?!) and the next day I also had sushi with Ali and Izzy WHICH IS ALWAYS GOOD BECAUSE FUCKING HELL I MISS SUSHI SO MUCH IN ENGLAND.
Hong Kong skyline from TST. How pretty. Not that it's been pretty recently at all with the dumb humidity and heat and bam, today there was a freak amber rainstorm and the tree next to my window kept banging on it.
Aw, the view from my window. I keep forgetting about my seaview because Coventry is in the middle of England and nowhere near the sea. I mean, I don't like being in the sea much but I love the concept and it's pretty to look at. (God damn it, I'm simultaneously so deep and so shallow.)
Night view walking home. This was such a nice walk. The wind was blowing everywhere and it was cool and I was staring at the view thinking about life and stuff as you do. I'm in such a questioning/existential mood as of late.
In other, small news, I have begun the game of 'How many dvds can you hide in your suitcase before your parents get annoyed,' also known as packing to the ordinary person. Esme's coming over tonight (yes, it's 12.42 already but whatever,) and unfortunately, our Disneyland plans may fall through based on shitty weather. (See: freak amber rainstorm.) Other than that, I leave early Wednesday morning! So excited to be back in cool weather and no humidity and not a lot of people. I really miss England where I'm gone. It's funny how I cling to new homes really quickly and form new links. I'm like a country chameleon.
Friday, April 13, 2012
30 Things I've Learned In The Last Few Months Or So
1. For some reason, not everyone finds videos of exotic shorthairs doing cute things as adorable as I do and they consider it weird that I can literally spend hours doing nothing but watching these.
2. England has not really been exposed to the wonder that is frozen yogurt.
3. But milkshakes, everywhere.
4. There's such a thing as toblerone cake and it is actually a foodstuff sent down from the heavens to bless us mortals.
5. That I would passionately and desperately miss green tea lattes in England.
6. Oprah's name on her birth certificate is actually 'Orpah'
7. Your best friends will always hate your ex under any circumstance.
8. The emergency exit aisle seats on Qantas don't have liftable arm rests.
9. Legit sharpies are actually rather expensive. (In comparison to New Zealand dollar store knockoffs.)
10. It's pretty easy (and cheap) to buy cut-outs of fictional characters.
11.
This scene was not actually filmed with a camera on a rig and instead by using the most badass cameraman ever.
12. Pancake day is taken seriously in the UK and it is damn fabulous.
13. It's possible to trip over a fire hydrant.
14. Disneyland's restaurants do not serve free water.
15. Avocado seriously works in any meal of the day.
16. Wii games are region protected.
17. Amaretto and cranberry tastes like christmas.
18. It's actually really easy to fall asleep in an uncomfortable screening room.
19. Australians occasionally think 'Loughborough' is pronounced 'Loogabarooga' #bless
20. There is always an 'Unexpected item in bagging area' whether there actually is or not.
21. Buying coffee every morning builds up to a ridiculous amount of money.
22. They don't really say 'Mail' in England.
23. Tesco's idea of '24 hours' is actually '24 hours except for when we close Midnight on Saturday and 4pm Sunday'
24. Ed Wood is both the best and worst director ever. And possibly my favourite.
25. There are just as many fanboys for Ryan Gosling than there are fangirls.
26. Just because my friends are "kind of close" to me in England doesn't mean I'm ever going to visit them because transport is expensive as fuck.
27. It's horrifyingly easy to have your wallet stolen right out of your bag.
28. Doing way too much research means your essay will be way too long.
29. University dorm walls are really fucking thin.
30. I get visibly distressed when I have more 'drafts' than published posts in the post section on blogger.
2. England has not really been exposed to the wonder that is frozen yogurt.
3. But milkshakes, everywhere.
4. There's such a thing as toblerone cake and it is actually a foodstuff sent down from the heavens to bless us mortals.
5. That I would passionately and desperately miss green tea lattes in England.
6. Oprah's name on her birth certificate is actually 'Orpah'
7. Your best friends will always hate your ex under any circumstance.
8. The emergency exit aisle seats on Qantas don't have liftable arm rests.
9. Legit sharpies are actually rather expensive. (In comparison to New Zealand dollar store knockoffs.)
10. It's pretty easy (and cheap) to buy cut-outs of fictional characters.
11.
This scene was not actually filmed with a camera on a rig and instead by using the most badass cameraman ever.
12. Pancake day is taken seriously in the UK and it is damn fabulous.
13. It's possible to trip over a fire hydrant.
14. Disneyland's restaurants do not serve free water.
15. Avocado seriously works in any meal of the day.
16. Wii games are region protected.
17. Amaretto and cranberry tastes like christmas.
18. It's actually really easy to fall asleep in an uncomfortable screening room.
19. Australians occasionally think 'Loughborough' is pronounced 'Loogabarooga' #bless
20. There is always an 'Unexpected item in bagging area' whether there actually is or not.
21. Buying coffee every morning builds up to a ridiculous amount of money.
22. They don't really say 'Mail' in England.
23. Tesco's idea of '24 hours' is actually '24 hours except for when we close Midnight on Saturday and 4pm Sunday'
24. Ed Wood is both the best and worst director ever. And possibly my favourite.
25. There are just as many fanboys for Ryan Gosling than there are fangirls.
26. Just because my friends are "kind of close" to me in England doesn't mean I'm ever going to visit them because transport is expensive as fuck.
27. It's horrifyingly easy to have your wallet stolen right out of your bag.
28. Doing way too much research means your essay will be way too long.
29. University dorm walls are really fucking thin.
30. I get visibly distressed when I have more 'drafts' than published posts in the post section on blogger.
Friday, April 6, 2012
Thunderstorms.
Rainy days has me seeking recluse in my house (as ever) and most specifically, in my room (as ever ... apart from the several times a day I have to go outside to use the wifi on my phone to catch up on my draw somethings,) so I've been basking in the familiar of the escapists... films and books and hot chocolate and oh, I'm instagramming like a bitch now as well because it's been released for android and thus I can join the ranks of hipsters uploading square, filtered photos with a border.
Like this ;)
New poster (FUCK ME, I KNOW I DON'T HAVE ANYMORE GOD DAMN ROOM ON MY UNI WALLS BUT NOOO I CANNOT RESIST THE ALLURE OF SHINY NEW PAPER. Poster magpie WHAT'S UP.) courtesy of the new HMV that's just opened really close to my bus stop which is very convenient but on the whole, disastrous for my wallet and life.
Okay so yeah, I'll confess now that despite not having gotten my money yet, (government money come to me shh love me now,) I've already done a tiny bit of DVD shopping and have realised with the wonderful convenience of region freaking protections and my lack of ps3 here, I cannot watch asian DVDS on my macbook pro (English,) or my PC (WHICH IS STILL DEAD WITH ALL LOST FILES INCLUDING ALL MY FINAL FANTASY 7 ONES I WILL WRITE ANOTHER FURIOUS POST ABOUT THIS LATER BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ON THIS SUBJECT,) so I had to dig up my macbook and now my desk setup makes me look like an apple whore (I swear I'm not.)
I love instagram already go away hipster at heart I guess :L
So I finally watched Source Code (recommended to me as "best sci-fi film I've seen in ages," etc. by various members of my peer circle,) and let's sum up my watching of the film in a numbered list, (because I love them more than life itself as ya'll can probably guess.)
Speaking of which, I've partaken in a perhaps rather stupid activity for tonight: film of the night is Fincher's american remake of The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. I love Fincher. I've read the books and watched the swedish film. Let's just say that even after just reading the books, (SPOILER AGAIN,) me and Esme discussed how absolutely petrified we were of Martin Vanger and I vaguely remember lying in my bed in our hotel in New Zealand staring at that massive window in the ceiling almost frozen in fear that I'd suddenly see his face pop out there.
Similar feelings are arising at the moment.
I pick the weirdest films to watch during stormy weather. Which I love, by the way. I don't know why people complain... okay, it's annoying my plans were cancelled because I was looking forward to a cute girly catch up with Ali & Alex, but I'd rather curl up at home with ice cream and a film than deal with being outside in the rain. All I need is someone to come over curl up with me attn attn apply here I'll feed you cookies :*
Luckily I have other distractions like the other zillion films I've downloaded/bought recently to watch, so I'll find something lighthearted to stop me having another damn nightmare tonight (long story short about last night's: evil christian church camp abducting and sacrificing kids and I tried to save them and the leader attacked me with a knife :-;) so uh, that's good I guess? And now I'm alone in the house and the film is finishing and jesus christ martin vanger is the scariest concept in the world I don't even want to leave my house I CAN'T BELIEVE HE KILLED THE CAT I FORGOT ABOUT THAT AND I JUMPED SO MUCH WHEN THAT HAPPENED.
Okay I'm going to stop blogging about nothing now and just go and eat one of the honey cupcakes my momma made. Yeah.
Like this ;)
New poster (FUCK ME, I KNOW I DON'T HAVE ANYMORE GOD DAMN ROOM ON MY UNI WALLS BUT NOOO I CANNOT RESIST THE ALLURE OF SHINY NEW PAPER. Poster magpie WHAT'S UP.) courtesy of the new HMV that's just opened really close to my bus stop which is very convenient but on the whole, disastrous for my wallet and life.
Okay so yeah, I'll confess now that despite not having gotten my money yet, (government money come to me shh love me now,) I've already done a tiny bit of DVD shopping and have realised with the wonderful convenience of region freaking protections and my lack of ps3 here, I cannot watch asian DVDS on my macbook pro (English,) or my PC (WHICH IS STILL DEAD WITH ALL LOST FILES INCLUDING ALL MY FINAL FANTASY 7 ONES I WILL WRITE ANOTHER FURIOUS POST ABOUT THIS LATER BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ON THIS SUBJECT,) so I had to dig up my macbook and now my desk setup makes me look like an apple whore (I swear I'm not.)
I love instagram already go away hipster at heart I guess :L
So I finally watched Source Code (recommended to me as "best sci-fi film I've seen in ages," etc. by various members of my peer circle,) and let's sum up my watching of the film in a numbered list, (because I love them more than life itself as ya'll can probably guess.)
(1) I already adored it 30 seconds in because of how damn pretty it was. The colour grading and camera work ahhh. CALL ME SHALLOW THEN GO AHEAD MAYBE I AM I DON'T CARE.
(2) Overall, a really clever concept which I liked... I was slightly concerned that it'd get repetitive but I liked how they managed to alter the location each time and bring new elements whilst somehow developing a relationship (although it wasn't really too in-depth,) between protag and 'love interest,'
(3) Wasn't overly long as well... managed to keep my interest despite point (2), and I liked the script, which was both relatively well written and funny enough as well.
(4) SPOILER during the freeze-frame, I thought it was the end of the film and burst into tears. Turns out there was another 7 minutes or so, so turns out I wasted my tears over nothing.
(5) The ending really intrigued me... I spent a fair bit of time reading about the different theories and plotholes and alternate suggestions on the internet and formulated some of my own, which I won't discuss too much as spoiling things makes me sad. Did make me think a lot though, which is good, because I really enjoy films that make you think long after about lingering plot points and alternate suggestions and ideas and messages suggested by the film.
Speaking of which, I've partaken in a perhaps rather stupid activity for tonight: film of the night is Fincher's american remake of The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. I love Fincher. I've read the books and watched the swedish film. Let's just say that even after just reading the books, (SPOILER AGAIN,) me and Esme discussed how absolutely petrified we were of Martin Vanger and I vaguely remember lying in my bed in our hotel in New Zealand staring at that massive window in the ceiling almost frozen in fear that I'd suddenly see his face pop out there.
Similar feelings are arising at the moment.
I pick the weirdest films to watch during stormy weather. Which I love, by the way. I don't know why people complain... okay, it's annoying my plans were cancelled because I was looking forward to a cute girly catch up with Ali & Alex, but I'd rather curl up at home with ice cream and a film than deal with being outside in the rain. All I need is someone to come over curl up with me attn attn apply here I'll feed you cookies :*
Luckily I have other distractions like the other zillion films I've downloaded/bought recently to watch, so I'll find something lighthearted to stop me having another damn nightmare tonight (long story short about last night's: evil christian church camp abducting and sacrificing kids and I tried to save them and the leader attacked me with a knife :-;) so uh, that's good I guess? And now I'm alone in the house and the film is finishing and jesus christ martin vanger is the scariest concept in the world I don't even want to leave my house I CAN'T BELIEVE HE KILLED THE CAT I FORGOT ABOUT THAT AND I JUMPED SO MUCH WHEN THAT HAPPENED.
Okay I'm going to stop blogging about nothing now and just go and eat one of the honey cupcakes my momma made. Yeah.
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